The YO YO

For the past eight or so years I have struggled with my weight. In the ninety's I was a steady 120 give or take a few pounds here and there. I started realizing that I had put on a few extra pounds when I saw a picture of me New Years 2000. I'm guessing I was around 130lbs. I went through allot that year. I had gallbladder disease, couldn't work and was awaiting surgery when I came down with pneumonia. When I finally got back to work I was close to 140lbs. When my house was being built in 2003, I promoted to a comfy computer position and packed on another 10 or so pounds.

The next few years came and went with a little gain here and there. I was in a relationship that ended really bad, and by the time I was finished emotionally eating my way out of it I had reached 173lbs. Which is were I have yo yo'd back and forth to ever since.

In August of 2005 I was married. I dropped down to 158lbs. I was walking every morning and on the Jenny Craig diet.

The following year in May we tried to get pregnant and on July 28 2005 we found out that we succeeded. In August we moved from Arizona to Washington and I got in to see an OB/GYN in October when I discovered I was back to the famous number that has plagued me over and over again 173lbs.

I maintained that weight most of my pregnancy, in fact I weighed 178lbs. just before my son was born. April 1, 2007

In November while I was pregnant we joined a gym in Pasco, WA. I truly believe this is what saved my pregnancy. I was able to stay active,

I ate healthy and felt better than I had in a long time.

Landon was born in April, then in May he and I flew back to Arizona for a week. In August we drove back to Arizona and then we drove to Portland OR and SunnySide. When the summer ended and winter began rolling around again I was at an all time high "i mean weight-high" I weighed more than I ever did with all four of my children 196lbs.

I went back to the gym finished out the year contract and then I switched over to one closer to my house with a pool...my intentions...

to complete a triathlon. I tried the Michael Thermon diet, Atkins diet, Biggest Loser diet. Yo yo Yo yo YO... I lost enough to run a 5K and then back up I went.

It takes months to loose 20lbs., It takes one Holiday to gain 10.

This is the latest picture, February 14, 2008 170lbs.

I am tiered of living life this way. I need to get down to the bottom of what drives me up and what can keep me down.

You can choose to follow this blog if you wish. I am publishing it just to have a running record of what is going on. There may be posts that bore you to death and others that you could totally relate to. What ever plays out I just want you to know that I am laying it all out on the table. Good, Bad or Ugly it will be real. And I am doing it for me.